I WANT TO LIVE GUILTY

 

 

BABY

 

I AM A SOFT PEACH

WHEN IT’S TOO MUCH

I LEAK

BUT THAT’S WHEN I AM

THE SWEETEST

 

 

RIPE, RUIN

 

MAKE ME BORN AGAIN

MAKE ME HAPPY

MAKE ME INFANTILE

MAKE ME SOFT WOUND

MAKE ME FIRST SCREAM

I AM NOT THE FORBIDDEN FRUIT

I’VE NEVER BEEN

IT’S BEEN MONTHS SINCE YOU LEFT

SKIN RIPENS, RED FADES

FLESH IS HEALING BACK TO

IT’S NATURAL PEACHY TONE

I’D RATHER BE THE ONE LEAVING

IN THE MORNING I

CAN’T EVEN CLENCH MY FISTS

 

 

CRYING IN PUBLIC

 

SOMETIMES WAR IS

SOFT

A CUT STILL NOT HEALED

THAT YOU CAN MAKE

BLEED

, YOUR FINGERPRINTS

BURN HOLES

IN MY SKIN & I MISS IT

LOVING YOU AFTER THE STORM

THE WORD DESPITE, AFTER ALL

 

 

FOR YOU DISLIKE BUTTERED BREAD

 

INDECENT EXPOSURE

WE LOOK LIKE WE’RE DANCING

YOU MAKE ME VOMIT WHEN

THE WORLD ISN’T WATCHING

YOU LOOK LIKE A GOLDEN DAWN

TRUCE IS A LAZY MORNING

I MADE YOU BREAKFAST BUT YOU

CARVED YOUR NAME INTO

THE SKIN OF MY HANDS

I USED TO BE THE KNIFE

WILL YOU LOVE ME IN A FORTNIGHT?

 

 

HOMEWRECKER

 

DESPAIR IS A TENDER WAY TO NOT DIE

& NOW THAT I KNOW

YOU – YOUR SWEET TONGUE

YOUR SHARP TOOTH – I

DON’T WANT TO TOUCH YOU

HANDS BURNT PLAYING GOD

BUT NOW THAT I KNOW YOU

WHEN YOU’RE HURT YOU CRY

BIG VOICE CRY

FISTS CRY

PUNCHING WALLS CRY

SLAMMING DOORS CRY

BUT WHAT’S FREEDOM AFTER ALL

EATING CANDY IN BED

CRYING IN PUBLIC

COUNTING COPPERS ON THE FLOOR

MAKE AMENDS

 

 

Joan De Bona is a multimedia artist based in London. 

"I WANT TO LIVE GUILTY is a collection of poems and writing I’ve worked on in the past two years. It will be out on Feb 2nd at Fruit Exhibition in Italy and then be available to purchase through my website joandebona.tumblr.com"