I WANT TO LIVE GUILTY
BABY
I AM A SOFT PEACH
WHEN IT’S TOO MUCH
I LEAK
BUT THAT’S WHEN I AM
THE SWEETEST
RIPE, RUIN
MAKE ME BORN AGAIN
MAKE ME HAPPY
MAKE ME INFANTILE
MAKE ME SOFT WOUND
MAKE ME FIRST SCREAM
I AM NOT THE FORBIDDEN FRUIT
I’VE NEVER BEEN
IT’S BEEN MONTHS SINCE YOU LEFT
SKIN RIPENS, RED FADES
FLESH IS HEALING BACK TO
IT’S NATURAL PEACHY TONE
I’D RATHER BE THE ONE LEAVING
IN THE MORNING I
CAN’T EVEN CLENCH MY FISTS
CRYING IN PUBLIC
SOMETIMES WAR IS
SOFT
A CUT STILL NOT HEALED
THAT YOU CAN MAKE
BLEED
, YOUR FINGERPRINTS
BURN HOLES
IN MY SKIN & I MISS IT
LOVING YOU AFTER THE STORM
THE WORD DESPITE, AFTER ALL
FOR YOU DISLIKE BUTTERED BREAD
INDECENT EXPOSURE
WE LOOK LIKE WE’RE DANCING
YOU MAKE ME VOMIT WHEN
THE WORLD ISN’T WATCHING
YOU LOOK LIKE A GOLDEN DAWN
TRUCE IS A LAZY MORNING
I MADE YOU BREAKFAST BUT YOU
CARVED YOUR NAME INTO
THE SKIN OF MY HANDS
I USED TO BE THE KNIFE
WILL YOU LOVE ME IN A FORTNIGHT?
HOMEWRECKER
DESPAIR IS A TENDER WAY TO NOT DIE
& NOW THAT I KNOW
YOU – YOUR SWEET TONGUE
YOUR SHARP TOOTH – I
DON’T WANT TO TOUCH YOU
HANDS BURNT PLAYING GOD
BUT NOW THAT I KNOW YOU
WHEN YOU’RE HURT YOU CRY
BIG VOICE CRY
FISTS CRY
PUNCHING WALLS CRY
SLAMMING DOORS CRY
BUT WHAT’S FREEDOM AFTER ALL
EATING CANDY IN BED
CRYING IN PUBLIC
COUNTING COPPERS ON THE FLOOR
MAKE AMENDS
Joan De Bona is a multimedia artist based in London.
"I WANT TO LIVE GUILTY is a collection of poems and writing I’ve worked on in the past two years. It will be out on Feb 2nd at Fruit Exhibition in Italy and then be available to purchase through my website joandebona.tumblr.com"